So close....

I lost 2.8 this week! I did not think it would be that much, but of course that's awesome. I'm 3 lbs. away from my 10%. I know I probably won't hit it this week, but I'm trying my hardest. I'm really close to TOM, and I don't want to get discouraged. So we'll see. My brother and his family just got into town, so I'm going to try and be really good about my eating this weekend, because you know how it is when you're family's around. It's like all they want to frickin' do is eat! And not healthy foods either. I started my new job and so far it's going well. I haven't even gone in to the cafeteria because I don't want to be tempted not to bring my own healthy lunch. We'll see how long that lasts. That damn grilled cheese will be calling my name, and we might have to have a quickie in the back corner where no one can see.

Finally doing it....

I decided to suck it up (and in!!) and post some pictures. We went to the Pacific Science Center and to the Space Needle yesterday. My friend and her son had never been there, so even though I've lived here all my life, it was fun to be a little "touristy" I did go to Dick's though, which is a hamburger joint that is pretty popular. All they serve is burgers and fries for pretty cheap, but it's super good. So I used my flex points and splurged. It was a lot of walking though, so I think I earned an activity point or two.
I'm excited and nervous because I start a new job tomorrow. I'm still with the same company, just a completely different department. I'm also going back to full time. I loved staying home with Tyler, but it'll be nice to have the extra money because I know soon he's going to want to do more things and it'll be nice to take a vacation or something. I think it will also help with my eating because I know when I'm home, sometimes I eat just because I can. Even with WW, I'll think, oh I need a snack, and it's just more convenient for me to eat. Like I said, excited but nervous. Well, I'm going jeans shopping (!!!) because mine right now are a little baggy in the butt as my husband informed me. I hate shopping for pants, but at least it's for a better reason than before!!!

Up 1.2 lbs...

But it's okay, because I was ready for it. Our meeting last night was really awesome, and I'm so glad that our leader is back!! He talked about focusing more on the outcomes we are looking to achieve. This was great for me because I was just saying how bored I've gotten and I haven't been looking ahead at what I want to accomplish now. I'm hungry now, so I'm going to eat more....Now I'm reminded to look at a week from now, how will I feel if I eat that (fill in doughnut/cheese quesadilla/whatever happens to be sitting in front of me) So I'm glad to be back on track, and happy to see how well everyone else is doing. That's a nice bit of motivation as well.

Bad blogger, bad!!

I haven't been very good about blogging lately. Maybe it directly corresponds to my lack of tracking. Well, not total lack, but I haven't been as good as I normally am. I hadn't given up totally, and I was still losing...It was like I just hit a little bit of a bump. I've been really bored with what I'm eating lately. I eat the same things every week, I walk the same path with my buddy....I just got kinda bored all around. But I'm glad to be back. I realized how important it is to track and I've found some really great recipes. I know everyone pretty much knows Roni, and I love her recipes. She's a genius. So I weigh in tonight and we'll see how I did. I've hit the 15 pound mark, so I reallllyy hope I don't go backwards. I'm so close to crossing over into the 180's. And I finally got an unsolicited comment about my weight loss!! About frickin time!! I'll post again later once I weigh in. I'm going to go catch up on all my favorite blogs in the mean time.

Meetings

I don't know how most of you feel about meetings, but when my friend and I first started, we didn't think we were going to be staying for the meetings. We planned on just weighing in, staying for that first meeting, and then only weighing in after that. But we absolutely LOVED our leader, and we've stayed for all the meetings since then. Last Monday our leader was on vacation and the leader that filled in...well, I don't mean to be a downer, but she sucked. All we talked about for the whole meeting was how many points different restaurants were. I know the point she was trying to make was that what you might think is the best choice really isn't. Like you think you're being healthy because you pick the chicken sandwich, but then you find out it actually had more points than the double cheeseburger you really wanted in the first place. I told my friend I felt like the motto of that meeting was "just eat the double cheeseburger" and that wasn't what I needed after my weekend of splurging. We left feeling not very motivated. And I can honestly say I feel like it made a difference in how my week went. I didn't feel encouraged or inspired like I do from my normal leader. I guess there wasn't really a point to this message, just that I miss my leader and want him to hurry up and come back. And that I didn't realize how important a good leader is in my weight loss journey.

Good Day

My mom and I took Ty to the downtown farmer's market today. We also went to the Children's Museum again because it was free. It was a lot of fun - and a lot of walking, some uphill while pushing the stroller. I also walked with my buddy tonight so I'm glad I got some activity points in. I got some great veggies and yummy peaches. I'm trying really hard to find some different healthy things to make for dinner. I've been trying to find things that hubby and the almost-two-year-old will eat, but that's always a challenge. I just hate having to cook one meal just for me and sometimes hubby and then a separate one for Ty. I love Roni's page because she comes up with the best meal ideas. I wish I was that creative. Tomorrow I'm taking my Mom to get a pedicure because we missed her birthday while she was visiting my brother and family in CA. ***Sidenote: My brother is in the Air Force and we just found out he will be getting stationed up here at the end of Sept!!! I am so excited since he has been in for 20 years and is finally getting stationed near home. They have four kids - two older boys and then a twin boy and girl. I am really excited for Ty to have his cousins here. Plus it means big fun holidays (hold the food please!!!) so that's really exciting. Anyway, I'm going to check my favorite blogs and then head off to bed.

I had an "aha" moment

I was reading a blog entry today and the blogger was mentioning how she doesn't like to be photographed because she worries about her weight in the pictures. I smiled to myself in that knowing way we all have when we read someone else's blog and think "yeah, I know how that goes!" I don't even want to post a picture on my blog yet. But then I started thinking about how I try not to be in pictures because I don't want someone thinking how fat I look. And I realized that I'm very rarely in my son's pictures. I took that one when we went to the zoo, but when we went on vacation: no pictures of me. Went to the sprayground: no pictures of me. Went to the Children's Museum: no pictures of me. And I started to cry. Because I don't want my son to look back and not have any pictures of all the fun things he did with his mommy all because she thought she looked too fat. I was up 2.4 lbs at weigh in and I did not think I had gained that much AT ALL! So I am officially remotivated (if that's not a word, it is now!) So thank you to that blogger (I think she knows who she is!) for opening my eyes to a very important part of my life I am missing out on!